I probably get more ideas that I should write or read and that may be because writing is just my way of making sure I sealing my feelings and emotions deep inside of me – not so that they can haunt me but rather so that I will be able to face them one day.
I use to think that being always positive will only help you to move on in life but the true is that it never helps. You need to balance the negativity and the positivity to become realist. There are some things never attainable while it’s impossible to change people, it’s not impossible for people to change.
Remember that time when you were pushing your work for the next day and you were giving excuses? We all went through it however only the ones that didn’t make excuses succeeded. I finally got out of this small basement and right now I am in a nice apartment with enough space for me to actually move around and not feel trapped.
I have to admit that moving out actually showed me how unprepared I was. I am currently on working on the 2nd chapter of Black Pulse which I think I might or might not change the name. The reason is simple, I don’t want people to assimilate it to other things than this manga. On the other side, I have never thought that I wouldn’t know what to write, this chapter was supposed to explore more the world that I created but we have all seen a series about multiple “meta-humans” so I want to bring something new to the table but what?
To bring Black Pulse more to life, I am planning to take a few kendo classes.
Here it is, the first chapter of Black Pulse. Honestly, I have written this chapter around 4 times from scratch in the last years. I can never be satisfied of it. For now, all it needs is a little polish and most likely, grammar revising.
I don’t know yet what I am going to do of the “Demon Of Burnaby” since for me, this series a mess-up of a lot of things that I like. I am proud of it to be in my writing universe but yet this the story is the root of this Universe.Sei Sukkaux is the root of this universe and being the point of origin, he deserves an epic story and I dont know yet if it is a good place to post spoilers here even though it is so tempting.
I have thought of writing more often lately since I have finally secured a full time job but it is quite demanding and I only get a couple of hours every day and maybe only the week-end to write. I have also wondered if there is actually somebody reading this page and if there is at least one person, I want to ask you this:
Are my stories worth turning into comics?
I have been working on Black Pulse for a while now and I am still no satisfied with the first chapter. I still haven’t captured the essence of what I want to talk about in this story. Black Pulse is a criminal, a person who would kill if ordered and yet still feels the guilt afterwards even if he does not show it. He is not compassionate and even if he would spare you if he wanted, his orders are absolute and it is not because he has been brainwashed or anything.
I wanted the role of his Father to show how parents can be misunderstood. He is scary, evil and rude but is that really what he is doing? Oh course, during all my versions of writing Black Pulse, the role of the father Black Pulse was always the role of someone who would give ruthless orders to kill and yet he shares the same goal as Black Pulse but I already spoiled a lot.
On the other side, I want to share an encounter with a friend who describe my dream to become a comics writer as a “boring career”. Just as anyone, I was offended and did not say anything else. It is true that having an office job with a good salary as a dream job for some people but yet, please don’t offend other’s dream and saying that it’s boring. I already worked hard enough to get a decent job to save money to learn drawing since I live alone. It might sound like I’m whining and it is probably the case. That means that I got to work harder so that to show them how good I am.
Ok. I did say that I am bad at drawing but I also said that I am learning. So here is something 😀
I have been thinking of a lot of stories before even starting to write online. Here is the sequence in which, it happened, in the same timeline :
1. Adelle & Demon Of Burnaby
3. Black Pulse
4. Rustre 2039
5. NEETs and HEROES
6. Dreams of the Dead
I have been thinking to post a chapter a day but most likely, I will post everything I have, after figuring out how to link chapters together on WordPress.
First of all, let me say that I am a pretty lazy writer. It has been years I have been trying to come up with an idea for a site where I would be able to post my works in order to attract possible illustrators for my stories but with school and me trying to find a job, I just postponed it.
The reason I finally got time for this site is simple – I’m done with school. After years of studying computers, which I didn’t want to, I got my diploma and I am looking for a job right now to survive – Let’s face it, no one can live the dream life of doing whatever they want unless they have money. Anyways, while looking for jobs, I will be using my free time to come up with short stories since it is what I want to do as living, (not computers – thanks, Mom and Dad!).
P.S. The reason I cannot draw is probably because I do not have the patience BUT I keep trying and it is still horrible. Hopefully I will get there someday
Edit: Illustration of me by ShaeHY